Anger Anger Please go Away

You know since my hubby go to work in KL, i have to care my 2 kids and a baby alone...no help from anyone.
I feel so helpless...
I asked my mom to stay with me since i live alone and i m scared of myself being angry..but she wants to go to her Islamic classes at hometown...
I understand she just wants her saham akhirat...as much as she could earn. Oh i wish to join her!

I tell you the truth, i don't even have time to 'membuang'...have to hold hold....no time to eat...hold on...house is messy all the time, if hubby around will make effort to clear the mess for him.

No time for everything. My baby also doesn't like to nap...ok naplah like 7-5 mins that's it. She sleeps at around 11 pm. If got rezeki, she will sleep early and i will have free time about 2 hours, if not...all of us will drift off to sleep together...leaving the house in the mess...i will wake up just to pray, prep Adam's bag for school and sign Adel's homework...

Yes I have no time for my own work...my new products will be put on hold....weeks without sale since cannot process. The longer i keep the more money I waste..

My hubby asked me to go to school for school transfer form...I said i have no time...don;t have time to poop and pee. I bath with my baby if not i will transform into a goat.
Yes, i have to prep lunch, go fetch them and go out again for kafa...my time is barely enuff.

No time to do Adam's revision whatsoeva...pity him.

And, since i am alone, i snapped lot's lot's lot's of time...

My baby, cannot be put down, She wants to be hold...all the time....

Adel, will create scenes every single day (middle child syndrome)...argggh!!! luckily she loves her sister.

I hate baby wearing, i am skinny my back ache!

This is just temporary...

Enjoy the 'moment'

Anger anger just bug off me!

Allah please guide me! Please!