Saper nak jadi suri rumah angkat tangan!!!!!

This is what I always comment in FB ---->Be careful of what you wish for...nak jadi housewife konon.

I am used to be a carrier minded woman also. During that time, I did my household chores also. Taking care of baby, sent him to nursery, took him back, bathed him, fed him, everything. I was tired and hope to care my child and never go to work again....sending him to that dreadful nursery really broke my heart. Plus...banyak problem kerja lagi.

The wierd thing is....becoming a suri rumah really sucks. You are trapped in the house. Has nowhere to go. No objectives...no tasks. No nothing. Nada. Ellek. None. Blank. Oh...No MONEY. NO $$$ at the end of the month. Stress + depress = my dearest friends. Feel bored all the times. Nobody understand. Low self esteem coz you are not working. Bored of doing stupid chores. Nobody appreciates what you did. Plus, you will leave a blank period of time in your resume (in case you want to go work again in the future). In Malaysia, this is not good at all. In the US/UK, okay. They will accept this reason. Stay at home to care for your family, then work again.

Stress of being a suri is different from work stress. I think it is bcoz----> stress at work, you will leave them at work. You will forget about it for a while after meeting your loved ones. Stress of being suri------> It will haunt you 24-7. If you didn't do anything bout it, it will EXPLODE. Either to your kids...hubby....cat...yourself. Yes, sometimes I feel trapped. I need some air. I sent the kids to the daily nanny. So that I could wind off. But I kept feeling guilty. Failed to be a good mom. Then of course I hated the nanny's services. Always let my child not wearing clothes. So, I stopped my day off. Then after some times, I think by online biz was going no-where. I wanted to job hunting again. Every time I tried to look for a job, I felt guilty. I don't wanna miss a thing of my children's moments. Then I stopped searching for a job. Okay, fine. I will further my study then. I was so close to submit the application form to study in Seoul...(WOW!), then I got this letter from MARA saying that I got that shop lot I was applying for (months ago). Here I am, this is my destiny. My online shop and walk in shop is getting better...I am happy because I can be with my children every single moments. Shop together...work together...learn together. SCREAM together...Frustrated together. Everything together gether...

I sold my car. So I have no mortgage debt. Every months, I just settle my manageable credit card debts like tv installment, Grolier installment. Insurance of course...(really pain in the ass). Then, shop rental. Clear debt first then save some money in Tabung Haji. Shopping money in BSN (emergency funds). I don't have lot's of saving but I am okay. I don't owned a house or a car by I am happy. I have no debt. I am debt free.

Of course my mom supports me all the way thru. My hubby? so-so. Hope he will help the chores. He never do chores...I am okay with it. I do my part...he does his part. Husband and wife have different roles in marriage. I hate nagging. Sakidap. Doa to Allah. Allah will appreciate what you do and what you did. He has  a big responsibility in mortgages, bills, household expenditure, his own gadgets shopping, his entertainment stuff---etc.

Money will always be an issue to me. I value the money more coz it s hard to get. Even 1 ringgit, 10 cent is precious. No more shopping like crazy...I still buy stuff like my precious Samsung Tab 10.1 but I really have to save for it. Next is a new laptop (this one is old and slow already), then buy Brillkids for Adelina, then is my piano, then....so on so forth. Shopping list never end.

Anyway, if anybody asks me:

' I would love to stay home and become house wife'...

' Good lah, no stress at home.'

'Why don't you be a craft teacher at....'

I WILL SLAP THEM IN THE FACE!

You have no idea bout being at home. You even feel bored after 1 week time off. How can you be a full time stay at home parent?

I never encourage anyone to be a SAHM even though I love every moment of it...:)

Aktiviti untuk Adam & Adel di rumah

Well, actually the schedule is free & easy. No fixed time to do what & what & what. I just set the everyday must do. Such:

1. Writing practice for Adam. Tracing for Adelina.
2. Counting 1-2-3
3. Read a book together
4. Cut and Paste (not daily)
5. Puzzle
6. Craft (whenever I have more time and tools and ideas)

I don't want to stress myself. So, 1-3 only is the priority. Yeah right, I am super busy woman. I write bout my activities later.

For writing practice, I just print it from the internet. There are tonnes of free web. I was overwhelmed at first. I bookmarked all of them but after scrutinizing/analyzing/filtering/searching these are my three favorites:

1. DLTK Kids Custom tracer - you can customize any alphabets or words you would want your child to write. They can trace it. For me, I teach them phonetic in Malay, so I need words like 'na, ni, nu, ba, bu, bi....so on'. This is the best custom tracer page.

2. Ziggityzoom - Lots of simple alphabets/ number/ shapes/ coloring...craft. Really like it. Easy to print out. No mess and confusing links. Love it and recommend it to all my friends.

3. Kidslearningstation - Here, you can get lots of tracer page. All levels. Cutting skills page for fine motor skills, basic writing practice, numbers, shapes, coloring page...LOTs more. Easy to open and print.

4. DLTK Kids Craft - This one is for printing out Craft. Trust me, kids love Craft. You will spend great Q-time while making craft with them. Even for 5 mins. They will appreciate it.

What you need at home to home-edu your child is a computer and color printer. Yes - COLOR printer.

Therapy Session 6

Semenjak 2 menjak teramat sibuk al nak mampus...tak sempat nak memblogkan diri pun. Alhamdulillah la kan? Dah ujung tahun ni kena wat sale. Clear stock lama tu. 

Hari Sabtu, 3th Dec haritu dah 6 kali la sesi terapi bersama ms Kok. Kali ni, dia bagi kertas mahjong...dia suruh Adam lukis. Tanya Adam nak lukis apa? Tanya open ended question. Jangan tanya yang jawapannya Yes/No. Tapi hari tu Adam malas. Sebab apa? Sebelum tu masa kat rumah ayah dia bagi dia main game. Then suddenly kena tutup sebab nak pi kelas terapi...hu hu hu. Mood pun hilang. Cakap pun tanak. Tapi lepas 1/2 jam oklah. Lepas dapat reward star. Ms Kok suruh dia punch star dia, pastu lekat di kertas. Dia pun suka.

Then, Ms Kok bagi kertas yang ada gambar atas dan bawah. Tanya dia mana atas, mana bawah. Gunting kepingan dan lekat...kena go on with atas/ bawah, dan soalan wh Q, repetition, s-v-o setiap hari. Jenuhlah bagi aku yang not talkative ni. 

So far, Adam dah improve banyak. Walaupun banyak ayat berbentuk kartun (yang tak dapat di fahami). Dia nak bercakap, cuma vocab takde. Slow-slow la baca kamus hari-hari. Rasanya tiap hari banyak sangat nak buat tapi masa tak mencukupi...tetiba dah Dec. Next month, he is supposed masuk tadika lagi. Rasa macam tak ready. Camner? therapist suruh masuk tadika bagi sosial? Terpaksalah, cari tadika subsidi kerajaan jer. 

Setakat ni dah jumpa 2-3. Yuran 60-70 sebulan. Cuma keadaan tadika tu macam...dot3x. Tak sama lah macam tadika Q-dees. Sedih sebenarnya rasa bila Adam masuk tadika balik (walaupun half day)....hope can adjust the learning activities to the afternoon and evening. Selalunya, after 12, aktiviti leasure----> tengok cd grolier, wonder pets, kartun disney...lepas ni terpaksa cut wonder pets dan kartun tv9. Petang kena baca kamus, buku disney...homework (kalau ada). Balik rumah petang baru aktiviti bebas...

Aku yang tak ready tuk berpisah ngan Adam...Hope he is ready. Love u son.

Let your child know it's ok to make mistakes, admit your own

Susahnya nak ikut quote ni...
Masa beli set grolier tu dapat sekali buku ni...Raise your child's self esteem.
Love it...senang aku nak baca. Short sentences. No need special time to sit and read, Nak baca PaMa pun...2-3 PaMa masih tunggu turn. Tak sempat baca, dah sampai PaMa baru...

Kesian la Adam this morning, sebab pagi-pagi dah kena marah dan pukul. Sedih...kesian dia. Kenapa aku ni? Layakke jadi mak ni? Mak apa cam ni, anak tumpahkan susu dah naik hantu gaban apa ntah....aku sedih dengan sikap aku yang tak berubah. Sedar2 dah dipukul budak tu. Apalah salah dia. Bukan sengaja nak tumpahkan susu yang baru dibuat penuh dan dimasukkan sedikit al Qurra dan dibaca salawat. Maybe I am the one who should drink all the salawat and kurma al Qurra tu. Frust dengan diriku. Kenapa aku macam ni? Kadang-kala rasa kesian kat anak-anak sebab dapat aku sebagai mak...yelah, aku ni tak suka budak-budak. Memang takde chemistry langsung. Taktau nak layan camner...Rasa menyampah la kat budak-budak (dulu la). Sebab tu TAKMO jadi cikgu. Nehi Nehi Nehi!

Ya Allah, semoga aku kan menjadi Ibu yang lebih baik esok. Amin.

Therapy Session 5

Lama tak tulis, sebab sibuk la...
Harini tulis awal sebab malam ni sibuk. Nanti lupa nak tulis pasal session tadi.
Okeh, tadi...dia buat satu gambarajah pokok, ada burung. Dia suruh Adam letak burung tu di atas...di bawah...ajar preposition.
Emphasize more on SVO - subject-verb-object. contohnya:
- Adam makan pisang
- Apple atas pokok
- Adik baca buku

Cuba bagi dia cakap 3 patah perkataan dan tambah lagi perkataan dia. Bagi konsisten.
 Exercise tadi, dia bagi sampul yang ada nombor, pastu dia susunkan gambar yang ada nombor di belakangnya. Bila adam pilih kad yang ada nombor tadi, dia suruh matchkan nombor tu. Then, buka kad dan suruh Adam terangkan apa yang orang buat dalam gambar tu. Kalau betul , dia bagi Adam punch kertas bentuk star...Mula-mula Adam macam malas (as usual) tapi lama-lama dia pun oklah. Habis latihan tadi.
Ok, boleh dipraktikkan dirumah. Guna barang yang murah tapi berguna. Latihan tadi, 2 in one sebab belajar kenal nombor dan action.

Haritu, 2-3 hari lepas, aku beli Education system Grolier. Sebenarnya memang tak teringin langsung tapi ntah macam mana, ter....then ter....BELI. Dapat set: Magic English, Fun thinkers, Junior Science, Disney Words, Ripley's Believe it or Not, rak buku. Hope it's worth the money. Mahal...bagi aku ni. Takut Adam ni mula-mula jer excited, pastu boring. Dia memang camtu. Tapi konfiden jer salesman tu kata budak autism pun suka...taktaula. Dah 2 hari ni, so far depa suka tengok DVD dia dan buku words. Fun Thinkers tu agak menarik, buleh guna lama sampai sekolah. Banyak sangat dalam tu boleh buat. Activity book untuk cd tu agak advance bagi Adam. Ada section ABC, spelling, Phonetic lagi dalam cd tu. Banyak gakla satu cd pun. Dalam 26 min habis section kartun dia. Then ada latihan lagi. Harap dapat keep the occupied masa aku sibuk di kedai...tapi section latihan kena bantu sebab kena picit remote.

Harapnya berjaya sebab buku Bacalah Anakku....tak berjaya buat masa ni. Tengok kulit buku pun dah meradang. Pastu kena guna paksaan lak suruh baca. Nanti jadi tak fun lak. Takut dia meluat membaca pula. Takpelah ajar Adelina jelah buku tu. Adik suka pula macam buku Bacalah Anakku.

Ayah skeptical sikit pasal Grolier ni. Biasalah, ayah kan...setakat 2K tu, beli tablet senang-senang saja. Biarlah tak menjadi pun tapi dapat koleksi buku. Adam suka pula baca buku Disney words, banyak kartun. Harap berjaya.:)

SGT tertinggal & Speech therapy session 3 & 4

Ntah macam mana, best buddy tertinggal kat showroom....dah tak keruan. Nak patah balik ambil malam-malam ni takmolah. Takut...So malam ni takleh la layan internet sampai lalok. Harap selamat. Esok terpaksa gi ambil lak...my SGT

Haritu, therapy Adam, both la about the same. Ms. Kok tu bagi kertas untuk Adam lekatkan sticker atau cop bila habis task. Okeylah dah diamalkan di rumah. Suruh dia tulis, then bagi sticker. Habis task dapat sticker. Tak buleh bagi reward best sangat sebab nanti dia meraung nak reward. Habis semua barang dicampak ke lantai, pas tu si mama naik berang. Apa pun tak dapat...

Maybe sebab session petang, dalam perjalanan pun Adam tidur, so dia agak letih la nak layan Ms. Kok ni. Nak main saja, tanak cakap pun walaupun perkataan yang dia tahu...hu hu hu. So, next session dah booked pagi-pagi after breakfast. Takdelah moody dan letih. Yelah, pagi dah buat aktiviti dengan mama. Petang session lak, letihla budak ni.

So, Adam ni kena banyak di tanya soalan di mana/ apa/ bila/ kenapa....(wh Questions)
then, NYANYI - improve sebutan nyanyian
tunjukkan gambar - action
Banyakkan vocab...(baca kamus?)

Banyaklah homework before the next session which is 3 weeks from now. Hope we can do this...AMIN

need more money...

bila nak kaya?
rasa cam nak stop biz, cari kerja balik..
letihla. duit takde, harta takde, keter takde,...
nak beli barang pun berkira kira..kan best kalau bole beli terus.
anak pun tak de rantai emas...takde heirloom pun nak bagi...
buka fb rasa meluat. bosan dengan orang yang berlagak...
ntah. meluat.
ya Tuhan, murahkanlah rezeki ku ni demi anak anakku...amin.