Assalam...

Sebenarnya tak tau nak tulis apa...
Tak kan nak tulis pasal kematian kucing dan kesedihan lagi?
(walaupun tiap malam duk nangis lagi...)

Tapi kan, ada 2 ekor anak kucing kecil...tak tahu sesat ke orang buang. Ada kat kedai...bukan adik beradik kucing nie, budak-budak kat kedai datang bagi baby kucing tue. Seperti biasa tak leh bawa balik rumah dan tak gitau hubby pun pasal babycat nie...biarlah lagipun tak berapa ada mood cerita pasal kucing nie. Anak kucing payah nak hidup...bagi vitamin dan ubat cirit dulu. Lepas sihat dan boleh makan baru open untuk adoption (kalau survive).

Minggu ni sibuk siapkan tempahan crochet untuk kawan...
Nanti dah siap ku masukkan pic...
Tengah sibuk buat topi angry bird ni.

Aktiviti dengan anak-anak macam biasalah, adik dah pandai dah ikut garisan walaupun senget. Adam susah sket...macam dialah tak nak ikut arahan especially arahan mama. Kalau dia nak buat dia akan buat...kalau tak banyak jer alasannya.

Cepat jer cuti sekolah ni kan? Ingatkan nak ajar si Adam ni membaca, rasa cam tak sempat. Segala worksheet pun gagah nak suruh buat inikan plak sesi membaca yang dia sangat meluat...

Ingat nak layan drama Korea tapi tunggu dululah dek takde mood sedih kematian kucing ni berlalu dulu.

In Memory

Sebenarnya i betul-betul ingat dia tak de apa-apa yang serius...
So, sangat tak jangka dia akan mati.
Masa kemas nak balik kampung semalam, rasa tak sedap hati bila i kemaskan tempat makan dia elok sangat macam dia tak akan datang dah. Well...
Tak sangka dia pulang ke kampung untuk selamanya.
Tak sangka i bawa dia pulang untuk tanam dia.
Balik rumah tengok collar dia yang i tanggalkan sebab dia asyik muntah...sayu rasanya.
Tengok sikat dia...yang i sikat bulu dia setiap malam...sayu rasanya.
Tiada lagi night buddy yang temankan i buat kerja tengah malam.
Tiada lagi hi-five dengan tangan gebu dia.
Tiap kali sampai rumah, nama dia yang akan i panggil dulu suruh balik dan dia pun akan terkejar masuk dalam rumah...
Tiap pagi, akan buka pintu dan panggil nama dia juga suruh dia masuk makan, kedengaran loceng di kolar dia dan cepat-cepat dia lari masuk rumah.
Semuanya dah tinggal kenangan lah. Tak sampai 6 bulan bersama kami.
I memang tak berhajat nak bela kucing baru dah. Biarlah tinggal sekor si bubu aje.
Tapi kerja-kerja foster kucing akan tetap diteruskan.
So, harapnya dia akan berdoa untuk i bila i mati nanti moga dipermudahkan urusan i di alam barzakh dan hopefully to see you in Jannah. I know you are there already. Bye. I really love you so much you know that right?
 :'(

Last living picture of him

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He Died

Today, Saturday 24th Nov 2012...he passed away.... ... ... ... ... ... ...

Anak bulu kesayangan jatuh sakit...

Harini kan...aku pun tak berapa sihat. Kena sakit perut...bangun pagi perut berangin dan sakit hulu hati...dan cirit birit...sampailah lewat malam time tulis nie. Tapi sebab kita ni jadi mak, terpaksa gagah buat kerja macam biasa. Kalau hubby pening ke sakit kepala ke, senang jer depa terus lena sampai esok. Kita ni terpaksa lupakan kesakitan kita kan?

Tetiba si oren ni masuk rumah pagi-pagi berkelakuan ganjil...dia bunyi macam pelik dan tak 'purr' bila pegang atau usap dia. Then keadaan tak terurus. Dia ni memang pembersih jarang tengok dia tak cuci bulu dia...ahh kenapa plak, aku dah sakit perut amat nie...Sebenarnya memang nak bawak dia visit vet pun harini untuk second injection imunisasi dia...Lagi satu, dia asyik muntah...sebenaqnya kucing memang biasa muntah furball tapi kali ni rasa macam aneh.
Takpelah kan bagitau hubby dia (oren) berkelakuan ganjil. Tapi hari Jumaat kan, vet kat kulim ni akan ramai orang...maklumla orang kan cuti. Aku ni dah la sakit perut satgi berterabur lah kat sitew...so ingat nak pegi sesi petang jadi first customer dan mungkin perutku dah lega sikit.

Bila dah tengah hari dalam pukul satu gitu, keadaan dia makin parah lah. Sampai hubby pun suruh  aku cepat-cepatlah pi klinik. Hubby aku ni sebenarnya dia tak nak masuk campur dalam bab kucing ni. Tapi nampaknya dia concern jugak...so bagitau lah dia, klinik vet session petang buka pukul 3 pm. Tepat pukul 3 terus pergi. Kebetulan hubby duduk rumah tinggal si Lina dengan dia. Bawak Adam jer buat teman.

Doc kata, dia ni kena infection kat hati. Hati dia dah bengkak besar juga...huhuhu. Doc pun bagi 2 das injection, spot on ubat kutu...tanya doc agaknya bila boleh pulih? dia kata...kalau bab hati ni lambat lah mungkin 2-3 minggu baru ok balik. Tanya lagi, boleh mati ke doc? dia kata kalau lambat boleh kiok! Ish, nasib baik alert...sebab esok nak balik kampung tau kalau lah jadi esok masa kami takde...(kami tinggal jer kucing kat rumah masa balik kg).
Dapatlah ubat 3 jenis dan vitamin serta ORS. Total RM80/=
Kalau anak sakit pun free jer tau sebab insuran cover.
Terpaksalah sumbat masuk mulut kucing ni segala ubat-ubatan nie.
Malam ni, dia memang baring jelah makan tak minum pun tidak. Kena inject masuk air ORS sikit-sikit dalam mulut dia. Sedih rasanya...esok bawa dia balik kg sekali...hopefully he will be fine. He's my buddy i love him.

Pap Smear test

Akhirnya dah selesai tanggungjawab terhadap diri sendiri...asyik tangguh-tangguh...bila kita free, nurse pap smear cutilah, pergi luar kawasan la. Bila dia ada, kita plak peot...ingat nak pergi semalam sebab hari Ahad kan, tak payah bawak si Lina ni nanti guling-guling menagis kat klinik nanti. Tapi as expected, nurse pap smear cuti plak...
Hari ni tak kira, bawa juga budak ni. Bagitau nurse nanti dia akan nangis bila i naik atas baring buat check-up. Betullah dia berguling kat atas lantai tu tapi nasib baik ada nurse satu lagi mai pujuk...selalunya dia tak nak kat orang tau tapi Alhamdulillah, ok jelah tadi.

Ini merupakan kali ke-4 buat Pap Smear test...tak suka buat test ni sebab you taulah kan. Tapi bila fikir balik kalau tak buat dan kalau jadi penyakit dan terlambat nak ubat....lagi teruk akibatnya. So hopefully depa tak call sebab kalau depa call pasal results kita, alamat tak baik tu.
I buat kat klinik LPPKN Kulim so kena bayar sikit. Sebab buat pekej kena bayar rm25.00. Kalau buat kat Klinik Ibu & Anak, free jer tapi tunggu lama saing dengan orang mengandung. Kalau buat klinik swasta, kena rm60++.
Tadi, results gula, berat badan, kedudukan implanon, period cycle, breast, semua ok kecuali tahap kolestrol teruk sikit...on the dot. Lepas ni terpaksalah jaga makan. Kurang goreng ayam kot. Minyak-minyak tu...cucuq...ni tara i tak berapa makan sangat tau. Cuma ayam goreng agak kerap la buat sebab senang nak masak. Senaman? payah sikit bab ni...no time and the kids love to bug me. Mesin senaman pun dah sedekah kat adik ipaq...sebab budak-budak suka main atas mesin tu takut bahaya dan jadi kejadian tak diingini.

Seriously sejak tak buka fesbuk, masa jadi lebih banyak. Oh...rupanya fesbuk ni membuang masa. Kadang-kadang bila buka komputer, tak tahu nak buka website apa. Selalunya buka fesbuk dulu...jadi, kalau takde kerja, tutup balik komputer dan buat kerja lain...kalau tak percaya sila cuba.

Harini order tak banyak so lepak dan download ost to the beautiful you...Serious best giler citer nie. Rasa nak tengok sekali lagi... nak rehat 2-3 hari. Baru nak start apa tu citer Kim Hyun Joong tu..ha Arang & The Majistret...Sebab apa meluat tengok drama Korean ni? Sebab bila dah start tak leh buat kerja apa dah asyik teringat kisah depaaaa aje. :)

Sadly enough it's true

Even though i am the main care taker for my kids, i rarely spend quality time with them.
Apart fro my biz, at home i will always busy in front of computers (work or surf or youtube) or doing household chores.
Okaylah I can say that i do spend tiny time with the little one Adel in the morning during Brillkids time. That's it. Adam...sadly - none. I do realize it I do! Since I am the one whose running the house, my time kind of gone...suddenly it's bed time and before bed of course 5 mins quality time - story telling. That's all. Thinking about it i feel sad.
Even though i am with them all the time i still miss the 'moment'.
Sometimes i wish for a domestic helper to help me out in chores. For me chores really waste my time. Sucks big time.
For example today, i want to do some spring cleaning... stuff i need i keep, stuff that make mess i'll donate/dump. No time for kids.
Since i realized this situation, today...i did spend a little bit of my time with them... :)
Hope i can maintain the consistency. It's difficult also, to do quality time because; when you are ready, they aren't...they want to play. When they are bored and need my attention, i am busy doing chores/stuff.
So..i don't wanna target so high, for 3 year old, only pre-writing activities in morning (after Brillkids) and coloring OR counting in the evening. (5-10 minutes each)

Adam---> morning he'll be gone to Qiraati until 11am. After that must do 1 worksheet (at least) everyday (5 minutes each session).
I also plan to play the educational app in the tablet together with them. That's all. Hope I can do this...seems easy right? but for me this is hard work.

Adam's activity today

Adel's activity today

Kids activities

Hey...i found this website, free and very good!
I've been looking for simple pre-writing traceable for my soon to be 3 years old girl.
So far, the worksheet is very simple and wasting paper to print or not suitable for her.
This one just right for her....beginning tracing printable.
I found it by accident. Actually i want to search Adam's activity. This school holiday, i just want to focus on ABCs and 123 - 20, subtraction and addition & hold pencil correctly...
This website is so good...click here.
Have fun!

Takmo FB seminggu...boleh ke?

Starting from tonight, i takmau buka FB my personal wall for a week...
Biz punya page kena lah buka...nak jawab soalan customer kan.
Ntah, tetiba terasa meluat...(pulak dah....) dengan setengah orang.
It's time to do spring cleaning...remove some friends that are not friends...i don't know how i befriended them?
To cut story short, i feel sad about some comments and decided to not to open my FB page for a week. So, next Friday...will update my status again. Who cares? Duh!

Should i?

Well, today is the third drawing class...
I am feeling uneasy or over-thinking, when my son told me that 'abang tampaq perut'..
I asked him 'dia tampaq ke tumbuk?' he said 'dia tampaq'
me: 'sakit ke'
him: 'tak pun'
me: ' Adam main ke gaduh dengan abang?'
him: ' main...'

Betulke budak ni main? There are older children at the class...

me: 'cikgu marah abang tak?'
him: 'tak..'

Ish...really gotta call Taekwondo class after this.
Actually i've been thinking about him learning Taekwondo quit a while but my hubby really against it because he's worry that my son would hurt someone else's kids.
Me, i just want him to defend himself in this cruel world. Being in standard 1 next-next year could be scary because there's a lot of school bullies...
Gotta call that teakwondo instructor!

DIY stepping stones

This is the kind of cake i love...
Made this on Saturday morning and ready to be stepped on..on Monday.

Ingredients:

Beli simen dan pasir kat Mr. DIY

Bucket dan spoon untuk bancuh

Recycled donut wrapper...or cake mould

Chicken fence. Cut into same size as your mould

alternatively, you can buy premix plaster...lot's easier

small stones, bought at aquarium shop

How to make your DIY stepping stones?

1. Mula-mula, bancuh simen. Kalau guna yang asing-asing, sila bancuh 1 cawan simen bersamaan 3 cawan pasir. Bancuh sampai jadi macam bubur lembik. Bukan  bubur lambuk. Jika angkat tak jatuh itu ok.

2. Masukkan ke dalam acuan. Jangan nipis sangat...agak-agaklah.

3. Letak pagar ayam atasnya.

4. Letak simen atas lapisan tadi macam sandwich.

Hias dengan batu...kalau rasa kering sangat boleh renjis dengan air bagi lembap sikit.

Dah siap...tinggalkan 2 malam. Letakkan di tempat selamat dari gapaian kanak-kanak ok.

Lepas siap...bolehlah letak atas tanah...

Tada!!!

It's done...

At last...it's done and i love it and most importantly, she loves it too!
Inspiration from Liz, her pattern is so easy to follow yet different from other hat patterns. Love this hat!
Actually, i have been looking for a long braided hat for quite sometimes and only found one in Seoul, Korea during our visit last year but didn't bought it and still thinking about it. Thanks to Theresa R and Liz, now i can make this on my own.
In Malaysia, this crocheted hat is very expensive...!!! We are in summer all year long. Thanks Liz.
Wanna make one? Click Here. 

Back to crochet..

Actually...i overwhelmed myself with new patterns...surfing crocheters blogs and realizing there are lots of stuff can be done with a simple granny square...now i m crazy to make granny squares!

I have completed my tasks at the shop and everything looks great. Today, had a success meeting with new supplier. Tomorrow, will buy some stocks at nearby supplier. I haven't finish calculate the invoices yet but will do it slowly...there's a lot. I also decided to hire someone by June 2013 to help me out...Alhamdulillah budget looks good.

Last night couldn't help making my princess a hat. It should be ready by tomorrow & will snap the outcome.

Then, will crochet my friends new coming baby bootie/mitten/beanie.

Then, will make Adam's owl hat.

Then, wanna make Adel's top.

Then, make heart buntings for Adel's birthday prep.

Then, will make 50 baby booties.

Then will make cushion cover using granny squares.

Then, planning to make ipad & my tablet's cover by using granny squares.

That's all...will update the progress.

Project latihan - DIY pen holder

Projek ni, saja nak test dulu sebelum buat kat benda lebih besar. Overall, need more practice..

1. Ini botol sabun cuci pinggan. Nampak cantik sayang nak buang. I simpan...kut-kut ada idea.

2. I potong mengikut bentuk diingini.

3. Lepas tu i pergi spray cat. Sebelum tu, bolehlah tebuk lubang guna puncher. I suka kaler hijau...i spray kaler hijau 3 lapisan. Spray jauh sikit kalau dekat cat tak lekat.

4. Lepas kering semalaman, i buat lakaran motif guna watercolor putih. Senang nak cuci kalau tersalah lukis.

5. Keluarkan kit melukis. Guna paint acrylic. Beli dekat kedai buku bahagian lukisan...macam-macam kaler ada. I cuma beli basic...satu tiub dalam RM9.90.

6. Lepas siap...nampak agak comot dan tak berapa cantik. Takpelah ini praktis saja...boleh gantung kat mana-mana. Kalau boleh sapu lapisan yang dilukis tadi dengan varnish...supaya tahan lama.

Crochet too much...

I decided to pause crocheting for a while...I still have one order for my friend but since the baby is still inside her tummy so what's the rush?
My hubby said i crochet too much it might ruin my eyes...
Thinking about it...maybe because i crochet everywhere...even while waiting for Adam's eye examination the other day.
Did I crochet too much? maybe because i let the unfold clothes sat in the basket for quite sometimes and just dug the pile of clothes looking for things to wear.
Just that...I still wash laundry, cook, sweep, manage my children as always... :))
But i did put aside my shop's 'need to do stuff' aside.... ha! Yes, again new products coming and there are lots of stuff to do. So, i paused my crochet activity until i finished the 'undone'. Focus on 'more money' than 'less money'.

So, i manage to set up Deepavali Sale for the shop...advertise the promotion.
I started to key in the invoices, Paypal first. I just realized how much they charges. Since their operation changed from US to Singapore...they're charging the fee a lot now. Really stressed me out thinking about that. I have no choice because other payment gateway are charging quite the same plus charging the set up for RM400++. At least Paypal is free set up but they will charge for every transaction now and even charge for 'send money'...it's like double charged... :'(
However, the charges can be included in the balance sheet later on.
I did...study accounting today. I want to finish the book in a week.
For the past years..i did my balance sheet, cash flow and income statement --- really 'cincai'. A lot of mistakes...So for 2012, I will do it seriously and using free accounting program downloaded from Cnet...but the accounting terms really confused me...that's why i have to study the book which i bought last year but just use it as 'house decor'.

and...i managed to make some stepping stones. If the outcome is good, i will 'story' about that.
After everything is DONE. My next mission is; make 50pairs of baby booties! GTG.

Hadiah untuk hubby...

Birthday dia bulan sembilan...sekarang baru beli.
Sebenarnya tak tahu nak beli apa? Bila tanya dia nak jam...jam plak hat riban-riban.
Manalah cik ouswipe ni nak wipe duit. Harap gaji kedai jer.
Pastu dia komplen wallet dia dah buruk...wallet dulu tu i yang bagi...lama berkurun dah. Awatlah dia tak beli sendiri...dia kan kerja.
Bila plak nak turun Penang nie...kat Kulim takde shopping complex yang jual barang jenama...so terbantutlah usaha nak beli. Nak pi Penang memang malas. Dengan anak-anak...takkan nak pergi sekali dengan si hubby tak best la beli hadiah dia dengan dia...hmmm

Tiba-tiba kan...ternampak flyer iklan banyak sangat kat tepi jalan raya mengatakan The Store akan dibuka! Di Kulim Landmark Central...
The Store ni memang wujud dulu pun tapi location teruk so malas nak menapak panas-panas dengan budak-budak...so tak tahu apa jadi kat tempat tu...

Hari ini buka, hari ini rasa gatal sangat kaki nak jengah. Tahu...memang ramai orang punya tak kira mesti sale gila. Memang sale teruk! Tapi tak de apa sangat la...i dapat la beli hadiah kat laki i tue...beli wallet jer. Jenama Alain Dellon.. bolehlah tahan 4 tahun lagi hahaha! Diskaun 70% wa cakap lu!
Tapi sebab semua cashier baru...lama sangat tunggu nak bayar. So, nanti-nantilah i pi jengah lagi. Tunggu YES kot baru pergi soping situ lagi.... :))

Adam's first Drawing class

Today is his first drawing class.
School holiday is due next week so at least he has something he's up to every Friday.
It is norm...all of the students are Chinese...let's him mix with other Malaysians. Hope he can do it!
The teacher is very young and I think she's ok. I don't know let's see.
The fees are very cheap only RM30/month for 8 hour classes.
There they will do crafts and learn how to draw and paint. I hope the class is fun.

Well, i don't mind if my son has learning difficulties but i really want him to be the best in his art class.
The best and most beautiful drawing in kindies, in primary school and secondary school. Just like mommy in her early days and i never went to any drawing class.

Anyway i hope he loves the class.

Check Mata

Semalam pergi check mata si Adam...
Sebab dah dapat surat refer pergi hospital.
Kali ni follow up jer. Last month dah check sekali..
Next month lagi sekali.
Untuk Adam ni, doc tak galakkan buat pembedahan sebab nanti kena bius full body dan bila bius...akan ada komplikasi. Kalau dah besaq sikit, buat local anesthetic saja. So,,,sapu ubat jelah dah kena cuci mata masa mandi dan demah mata dengan air suam supaya bersih. Bulu mata mamat ni panjang sikit so cepat kotor. Bakteria mudah membiak kat bulu mata...

Tapi kan...doc tu ada check power mata...dan dia nak check sekali lagi on next appointment sebab dia kata ada power. Ha? Anak aku rabun ker? TIDAK!!!!!!
Bukan apa, aku tak mau dia rabun macam aku....kesian dia.

Tapi...masa test semalam, Adam ni sebenarnya aku tak pasti samada dia tak nampak atau malas nak jawab. Bila tanya huruf apa itu? Macam biasa, dia bosan. Hmmm...
Mama pun kena lah print gambar 'eye test' dan tanya dia. Baru jer print. Mama ni nak pasti betul ke dia rabun atau dia buat perangai jer. Hopefully tak rabun. Budak umur  5 tahun kalau dah rabun...kesian. Sepupu dia pun dah rabun...nanti nak tanya cikgu tadika dia ni ada kenyit-kenyit mata atau menunjukkan keadaan budak rabun ke tidak kat sekolah...